Strength and determination

Strength and determination
As uncertain as destiny
Gathers in our mind
Lightening moments, bolt, shock, stimulate
Frivolous in flight, strength and determination
With my head held hight
Determination gives strength
From soul to soul, across my world
As a birds wings flutter
And the thoughts we utter
As forests touch the wind
Wings flutter, across my world

Dreams galore gather
Clouding my vision
At times bitter thoughts have power
To hide gnawing, corroding, my mind
Destroying the brightest light
Think love in determination
There’s hope in strength anew
Dreaded thoughts, give determination
The right to succeed
Renovating a blessed life
With the sword of faith held high


A journey with God

When God came into my life
I knew there was a higher power
I did not know what I would feel
The feeling that has risen from dust
God knew, I was searching
He knew what he would see when he found me

God created us, he put us here on earth
To lead this life, I begun anew
Learning as I go
Sharing, giving what I can

God knew I would stumble
Oh! how I have fallen at times
He knew I would suffer
He knew I would call out
Sometimes crying out to Jesus

In desperation

So many mistakes, so many difficult choices
He knew that I would falter
Lessons I needed to learn from them
There were times, when it was more that I could take

I cried out

People told me, God had a plan for me
Oh! at times I wish I knew
From the very first day I was born
As you can tell, it’s frustrating at times
But soon I started to see His way

A new journey started

God was teaching me patience
How to grow in patience
If only I knew, slowly
Love, trust, strength, faith and Grace

A new life in God

The love the grew inside me
All the good, that you do
God has be noticing the changes I made
He has seen the work I’ve done

He has carried me
Placed his hands
On my shoulders
Knowing the pain I carried
In my heart, each and every day

Life brought me to my knees
Some gave up on me
God has kept the ones around
That are true

There came a day
When I saw
The hand of God at work
The love He has been sharing
God saved my life
God created my life for me


A journey with God
In Jesus name Amen


Continually I have prayed

This is a personal post for me, but something I needed to do, to finish getting me over the line this week.


I need to do this study today, Forgiveness; forgiveness is eating at me this week. Continually I have prayed for forgiveness for those that have hurt me in my life, I once had a whole list then after praying destroyed it in the bin. I still continually pray for forgiveness, but when something goes wrong and it is not your fault it is hard to forgive at least it is for me.
But is you don’t forgive, neither will your Father in heaven forgive your failing and shortcomings. Mark 11:25-26
Prayer is vital, the desire to pray for forgiveness, the desire to keep moving forward in life, in order to reach our goal of peace. Well it is for me, that is all my desire is, is to forgive and live in peace. I know we don’t always live in peace, in life we have to face what hurts us. None of us really enjoy taking responsibility for our own actions or problem areas in life. Believe me I have plenty, some I have pushed deep down, but by doing that it is not going to set me free.
I am preparing to do some work with my psychologist on forgiveness and deeper work into my subconscious. One special point at the moment is “Emphysema”, even though I had lung problems as a child, unfortunately I lived with a smoker for far too long. I have to be careful what I put up on my blog now. But as a baby boomer we lived and worked with people, also socialised with smoke, even if you were not a smoker.
The decision to forgive is very emotional, it is for me, I need to keep forgiving, over and over. Maybe some will write in the comments about their forgiveness journey. It is not an easy thing to do I know. With the support group I have around me, they guide me, my heart has softened a great deal, my heart was truly broken and my healing has taken a while. I keep reminding myself to be patient, and keep coming to God.
Treasured friends shared this quote with me from ““Job” For he will not dwell unduly on the days of his life, but God keeps him busy with the Joy in his heart.”
We learn more and more each day to depend on God; “I ask can we depend now on God to help us through life, by inviting him in every day?. It’s funny I was so strong and independent when I arrived in the valley, but I know now, I had to open my door and let God in. I was very self-reliant the walls thoroughly surrounded me. Setting down the walls of Jericho depending on the Holy Spirit I remind myself today I am ready to forgive in the name of Jesus.
Changing my heart has been one of the hardest things I have had to do towards people in my life that have hurt me. The point to remember for me is that no-one can truly hurt me anymore by putting my trust in God, even though they can hurt us, God is always there ready to heal us.
I know for myself, I have so many emotions built up inside from many years of abuse, they are gradually fading as I managed them better each year. With God’s continued help.
In Jesus name Amen
There are many prayers for forgiveness but I like this one.
A Prayer for Forgiveness
1 Be merciful to me, O God,
because of your constant love.
Because of your great mercy
wipe away my sins!
2 Wash away all my evil
and make me clean from my sin!
3 I recognize my faults;
I am always conscious of my sins.
4 I have sinned against you—only against you—
and done what you consider evil.
So you are right in judging me;
you are justified in condemning me.
5 I have been evil from the day I was born;
from the time I was conceived, I have been sinful.
6 Sincerity and truth are what you require;
fill my mind with your wisdom.
7 Remove my sin, and I will be clean;
wash me, and I will be whiter than snow.
8 Let me hear the sounds of joy and gladness;
and though you have crushed me and broken me,
I will be happy once again.
9 Close your eyes to my sins
and wipe out all my evil.
10 Create a pure heart in me, O God,
and put a new and loyal spirit in me.
11 Do not banish me from your presence;
do not take your holy spirit away from me.
12 Give me again the joy that comes from your salvation,
and make me willing to obey you.
13 Then I will teach sinners your commands,
and they will turn back to you.
14 Spare my life, O God, and save me,[b]
and I will gladly proclaim your righteousness.
15 Help me to speak, Lord,
and I will praise you.
16 You do not want sacrifices,
or I would offer them;
you are not pleased with burnt offerings.
17 My sacrifice is a humble spirit, O God;
you will not reject a humble and repentant heart.
18 O God, be kind to Zion and help her;
rebuild the walls of Jerusalem.
19 Then you will be pleased with proper sacrifices
and with our burnt offerings;
and bulls will be sacrificed on your altar… Amen

Renew our strength

prayer for strength

So many requests Lord, You must be tired,
I am sorry, I must sound like a broken record
We hope our illnesses may be taken away
Yet I have come to know
God’s grace is what is needed
God’s power is so complete                                           Try to be a rainbow in someone's cloud. - Maya Angelou
In healing what is feeble
You God, wish to show me,
Have pride in Your body that is week
The power of Christ may be on me
So now I know take pleasure
In your weakness
There may be unkind words
There maybe needs
Oh! those cruel attacks
Yet troubles
Yet Christ is there waiting for us
I may be weak at the moment
But then I will be strong in health

And the Lord

(c) bjsscribbles

the prayer of prayer

Strength in the Lord

For a long time I had been searching for strength to do this or that or to discover I am equal to anyone in the world. Funny I know that now since discovering the purpose of God is to make you stronger. God’s greatest desire is that we have a deep assurance that His plan is to strengthen us, no matter this circumstances. There would not be many of us that know the strength of the Lord I am only just discovering that there is a great strength come from the Lord that keep me going.
It is so important to walk in faith and to block the things that Satan is throwing ait you. By forsaking these attacks and turning away from sin, the to God’s cleansing grace and the Holy Spirit in your life, restores the strength of God in our life.
I walked through life for many years without knowing God, I now have discovered there is strength, and a power for living in these troubled times. I honestly do not know how I got through life , but there are many like me out there in the world that did not know God or the power of God’s strength. God wanbelivets to give us His strength and more. God’s ways are bigger than any of us know, His ways of strengthening us are different than man’s ways.
God wants us to be strong, strong in Him, strong in Love, strong because we are filled with the Holy Spirit. Sometimes I still have a little difficulty in believing all good thing happen to me, I am also puzzled why I now have this unshakeable strength and from where it has come. I’ve faced situations which I do not understand; I’ve encountered obstacles, difficulties, like many others, even painful situations like now; which I was not expecting. It would be easy to lose sight of God’s purpose, but I have discovered you must stay with God’s word. Not losing sight of God purpose.
We all have thoughts of fear, discouragement, anger, frustrations; they all have not been far from my mind this year. I am try hard to battle through, keeping Satan at bay from attacking my mind. God’s thoughts I am discovering are making me stronger, His will is making me stronger, not putting me down. The strength of the Lord is to jump all hurdles that are before you.
We can easily turn our backs on the Lord in difficult situations, we can think God is against us, or God has forgotten us. We can become bitter, like people do. We must remember the Lord is there for all of us and is not against us. God’s purpose is to strengthen us, to overcome and conquer all. God has the final word. When I first walked into a church a few short years ago I could have turned away, I thought maybe there is something to this and continued discovering there is a purpose; God wanted me to be strong. I found myself becoming drawn closer and closer to God and the was a way to receive strength in the Lord. Finding now the word of God strengthens your faith and builds you up, one thing I have certainly discovered the word of God strengthens your confidence. We are strengthened to walk in victory, walk in faith.
We do not have to be arrogant in showing our faith or dominate people, strength in the Lord means you are strong enough to love people freely, strong enough to be gentle with difficult people. Believe me that is one of the hard ones. But strong enough to do the right things at the right times, with the peace of God at your side and in your heart. To have the strength of God’s love, we must remember the strength of love is the opposite to selfishness.
To remember to stay in God’s word and not to coast on my own strength is important. I know I can gradually begin to do thing in my own strength, seeking fresh strength day by day in the Lord, seeking strength in prayer waiting upon the Lord.

Today I find myself stronger than I ever was, as we are strengthen by the Lord, part of God’s purpose will help others to find strength in God. I have prayed for others that I know who don’t have faith in God, I know it helps me. I feel sure that God will help those I know that need strength to cope in this world of needs.

Isaiah 41:10 fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

1 Chronicles 16:11 Seek the LORD and his strength; seek his presence continually!

Exodus 15:2 The LORD is my strength and my song, and he has become my salvation; this is my God, and I will praise him, my father’s God, and I will exalt him.

Philippians 4:13 I can do all things through him who strengthens me.

Psalm 18:32-34 the God who equipped me with strength and made my way blameless. He made my feet like the feet of a deer and set me secure on the heights. He trains my hands for war, so that my arms can bend a bow of bronze.

1 Corinthians 10:13 No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it.

Psalm 119:23 Even though princes sit plotting against me, your servant will meditate on your statutes.

Strength and Wisdom

This is something I needed at the moment as I carry on waiting for my operation possibly till next April

I’ve cried out to you Lord so much
Your patience and wisdom have shown me
You are there when I need you
Showering me with wisdom and strength to carry on
You have taken time to listen to me and guide me
You care about what I say, which amazed me
Life that is happening about me, God I do not know why?
At times I am afraid, weak, but You carry me through
But you are still with me Lord
You know the situation and I trust you Lord
As you shower me with wisdom and strength
So I can have the courage to follow through the tough times
In your name Lord



Hope and Strength

“He who goes out weeping, bearing the seed for sowing, shall come home with shouts of joy, bringing his sheaves with him.”

[Psalm 126:6]

Today Heavenly Father
I come before you
I am now your humble servant
Today as I come before you
I am so much in need of your help
I need hope, I am desperate for hope
I have felt helpless this week
I have felt week, I am in times of strength
I am slipping in courage to battle on
I pray to you for the strength I need
To finally get to my operation
You have shown me how to love
You have shown me how to accept kindness
Each day I wake up I see the sky and its brightness
I am happy Lord happy in my life
I share your glory
I know as I move through my day you have planned for me
You wish to help me to continue to walk in your Glory
To continue my faith to grow, and live my life as you have planned
In Jesus Name I pray


Corinthians 12:10:

“Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for Christ’s sake: for when I am weak, then am I strong.”

A life can be created

Life is created in
No form or shape
Unquestionably life
Is attached to the rest of the world
Look at life with an open mind
In life we deny, play down, or even despise
We let life defeat us
The twist and turns of life created
May seem painful, evil,
Open your mind to the beauty of life
And find, Joy and Strength
Every moment of life
Is a moment of Joy
For those that have a vision
A life can be created
With an open mind
A beauty formed by nature

With God’s help and belief

There is a power within us all

As we walk in the footsteps of our God

Life can be created


A personal view on psalm 121

I look to the mountains,
Wondering if my strength comes from the mountains
I discovered a strength that comes from God
God made heaven, earth, mountains
God became my guardian, He has not let me stumble
God does not sleep when He is guarding you
Your guardian wont doze or sleep, He is there to protect you
Shielding you from every evil, guarding your life
Protecting you along your journey of life
Now and always


10000 Emotions

I wrote this when I came away from my counseling this week and after my session this week I could not believe how light I felt.

10000 emotions filed away in my heart,
For mine I tell you my heart is full of tears as I weep for you,
The darkness of night befalls me, my heart is so full of mixed emotions,
My mind is racing with words, mixed words, as I face this, silent night,
10000 emotions sit at the pit of my stomach waiting, weeping,

Mixed within my mind, a faith, waiting to be explored,
Woven, deep within my mind, giving me strength,
Deep whispers, echo this silent night, guiding me into the depths,
Of darkness that waited for me, for years I wanted to scream,
I wanted to understand, as I sunk deeper into the night,

Venomous words lingered in my brain for so long, like a nervous road map,
Hidden, for many years, waiting to be summoned, echoes of the past,
Nights, spellbound by the darkest nights, nights without form or wonder,
Weeping into my heart and mind were sorrow and pain, an apocalypse,
I could not explain, the mystic of my mind, confused, until I could forgive myself

10000 emotions filed away, years of sorrow and pain, filed away,
Images till now, words, reflections, sorrow and pain, solitude,
I had faith, all but perfect, yet to be explored, feelings,
I sought reality, I sought life, Oh! the wonders of life,
There is a way towards the light of life,
The minds conscience weaves a tale,

A ghostly shadow of the mind and heart, that appears at night,
Embrace them, the lost can be found, if let walk towards the light.
Have Faith Praise God….Amen