Deep inside our minds

Lately I have been doing some deeper work with my psychologist opening deep secrets that I carried with me right through my life. Finally dealing with life, I am moving on further. Each line I have written has meaning for me. Dealing with the past with imagery is a powerful tool.
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Where is meaning in this world
I have struggled to find meaning
We all know this world, yet we struggle
Today we try, but yet we wonder

I wonder where it is all going to end
Where should we all go?
There is so much hidden
Questions unanswered
Will we ever find the answers
The answers hidden, among the maze of the world
Deep inside our minds
Hidden deep in our inner soul

Life that is hidden, life we try to hide
Life does find you,
And it all releases
All the secrets of life hidden beneath the shield
The secrets of life can ruin the life you have made
Free up your life and release the secrets, dark secrets
The memories will fade, hidden in our lives
So many stories untold, of things we didn’t want told
The world came to a close for me, I told someone
Finally closure, my feelings are known
The struggle will soon be over
I am finally home

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We’re all a child of the Lord

To turn the page, as others do
Chances we take, before we get much older
We’re all a child of the Lord
How we look at each other
You’re the voice, Lord I understand
Your, voice is clear
No longer we sit in silence
We don’t live in fear
No longer
You’re the voice, try an understand
It’s time now we can all stand together
With the power of the Lord
Powerful, believing, we can make a better life
To turn the page, as others do
Chances we take, before we get much older
We’re all a child of the Lord
How we look at each other
You’re the voice, Lord I understand
Your, voice is clear
No longer we sit in silence
We don’t live in fear
No longer
You’re the voice, try an understand
It’s time now we can all stand together
With the power of the Lord
Powerful, believing, we can make a better life
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There is one who came for us

Call the Holy Spirit
“Come to my soul, Holy Spirit”
Fill my soul, with your presence
I feel an awe when I know You are near
Always as I breathe, Your Spirit
Your desire
To teach us all,
Your pleasure to show
The gentle flow of Your Spirit
Teaches us to grow
To those who believe
A comforter has come
The Holy Spirit
I am one
Who thought
There is other ways
Now I ask the God the Father
As I lay my troubles at the cross
Jesus shows me the way
With, Faith, Truth, Strength, Courage
There is no other God
There are powers, beyond the realm
Mighty powers we fight
Jesus rose on the third day
Fight of the power of the devil
Dear, Heavenly Father, I feel your Spirit
In the breath I breathe,
I worship You each day
My quiet time I dwell on You
While I wait for You to come
In Jesus name Amen
Galatians 5:22-23
But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, long-suffering, gentleness, goodness, faith,

Emotions by the waters edge

From deep within our mind, thoughts
There was always water
As children, playing happily
Along the water’s edge
Around the boats, we wandered
Jumping ropes coiled, laying quietly on jetties
Day by day, consciousness of the water
About our lives, by rivers, lakes, or oceans
The crashing waves hitting the fore shore

As we grew, so did our awareness
Our knowledge of water ways
Rivers swell, Oceans abound
We grew to know the expressions of water
Water our friend or foe
We turn our knowledge to our advantage
What days to wander by the ocean
What days to meander the rivers
Yet there is times to stay at home

The thirst for the ocean fore shore
The friendship we create, with the ocean
The sense of the way life is, or is not
A change in weather, creates havoc
Perception of the weather
Creates a new direction
New life under the sun
A cycle of life

Through the storms of life
Shock and realisation
There is a time we are called
One by one, a shadow appears
I feel a presence, a power, the power of God
Beyond the terror of life
We are expected to flounder
From that shadow, we feel a tug
Lifting us out of the depths

The echo, the howl of the wind
Our ambitions sometimes chaotic
Each ambition, sometimes we miss, and miss again
Through moments of grief
The last days of spring rain
Walking in between the coming rains
The lands blossoming, drinking up waters
Our minds wander of life to come

As we turn to the water
Hear the cry of birds
The evening breeze
The beauty of the constant motion
Again and again waters roll back and forth

The wind rises,we huddle down
Hiding our faces from spray
The early light would find
Us walking freely by the waters edge
The beginnings of dawn
Wind blowing the sea grasses
Voices carry across the windy shore
The fresh morning air on the edge of the wind
Clouds burn high above with the morning sun
Reflecting images on a distant hillside
Our hearts lifted towards the morning sky
Soaring on the coat tails of wind and rain
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As the wind passes your heart

All around I heard you pass
I look up to the sky
A gleaming shape floated by
And through the fields
I felt your breath float by

I felt your heart
For mine I tell you
That my heart
Heard you call in the wind
A wind blowing all day long
That sings such a loud song
Yet at time you hid yourself
I saw the different things you did,
Days when you are strong
Then days when you are icy cold
A wind that is neither young or old
A wind that blows all day long
Singing a soft tune
Light tentacles tousle my hair
Pressing against my cheeks
Tugging at my jacket
Reeling around me
Tugging at my soul
Like a lover
Gathering you in the wind
Arms wrapped around you
Calling you to dance
Hushed tones now
Hummed by the wind
Endless tunes, tugging
At my soul
My ears alert
To sweet nothings
A love gathering

Cage the wind
I tried between my hands
To gather it’s company
But like a vision
Gathered
It disappeared

A trail now lost
I tried to follow
A path that crossed
Many ways
The fields rustled
A silent sound
Feel the breath of the wind
In your face
it will not harm.

I felt your heart
For mine I tell you
That my heart
Heard you call in the wind
A wind blowing all day long
That sings such a loud song
Yet at time you hid yourself

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Life within PTSD

Life within PTSD

There have been many causes of PTSD within my life; I do not wish to go into them at the moment sometimes PTSD rares it’s ugly head from time to time. For the moment it has.

I sit and look at my writing delete, sometimes when I write at the moment, I look at it and it is not me

This last week life hit me like a wallop, everything was racing, and my stomach was churning. Sleep evaded me.

So many life changing moments have been replaying in my mind lately; you wish it all to go away especially at night. Loud noises are not my best fortay, my nerves struggle and I have to walk away. I think everything I did last year to get my life up and running again caught up with me big time.

My confidence increased last year, I was able to do many things with God’s help. I thought it’s time to close the book on my life. It did happen. The worst thing was when Tibby passed away, that shocked a great deal of people in my life, she was loved by many. Unfortunately the book of my life will be open again for a little while.

I went to the Doctors last night, we spoke of many things. The only thing I can do at the moment is rest. To bring my body back into relax mode. Stressful situations don’t help me. I do my best to keep out of those situations.

For the moment all I need is rest and quiet, to gather my bearings again. In 2013 I was hospitalised because of PTSD and I don’t wish to go there again. So please  bear with me for a little while. Till I return, please pray for me to find peace again.

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1 Thessalonians 5:16-18English Standard Version (ESV)

16 Rejoice always, 17 pray without ceasing, 18 give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you.

 

As the time had fully come

As the time had fully come
God sent his Son

Our hearts become alive,
Our eyes awake to the Glory of God
I praise you God, for everything,
You have done an allowed me to see and hear
We wait for the time of Your Revelation
We feel your power, your ultimate will for us

Hear our prayers in these days
Your kingdom is before our eyes
As other creatures, feel your presence
Your word, Your help, has shown me the light
Jesus’s Light, before the dawn of day
For all all the world

Praise and honor for all you do
May I continue to see, it all
Before my eyes in living
Full of Joy and Blessings
We wait for you, in joy and love
Longing for your glory…In Jesus name Amen

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