We never walk alone

Storm clouds roll through the night
lightening shatters the sky
the loud cry of the wind rips through me
The ocean rises, rolling high
My heart fills with terror
Despair I cannot leave
My thirst for peace gathers
In the quiet of the storm
Prayer fill my heart

When unable to think
My faith sometimes slips
Into the old ways
Friends that leave, betray
My heart longs, for those
Who left
There are times when night rolls through the day
Darkness has been endless
I wonder about the light of day
Longing again to see the light
When I see the light
Prayer has filled my heart

Feel, the gentle winds of the heavens
Sometimes I look to the heavens
Trying to feel the answers
I know God is walking with me
God lives in us all
He holds my hand as I walk
Just to know God is there
Watching over me
Night and day, he listens
When prayer fills my heart
Through all crisis pray
God leaves a puzzled heart
Un puzzled

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Moving closer to God

After living for so many years as an oppressed person, change was difficult for me. As I started to grow as an individual making decisions for myself, enjoying life for the first time in decades. I have felt deeply about the sudden changes in my life. My feelings have been that of joy and happiness, sometimes sadness because I have had to stand on my own and make decisions that are for the rest of my life. The changes in life situations have been for the better, it doesn’t mean it has been easy. Lately feelings rose again, I am growing within myself, yet people find it hard to accept I have changed. People I have known all my life.
As I grow more there is a deep shift away from a former way of life, towards a life of confidence.
I’ve been doing a great deal of reading lately with the help of my psychologist about assertiveness, plus when you are under assertion. That was me for decades, never expressing my feelings; my feelings were curtailed by everyone around me. My needs and opinions were placed as second to others. My rights to communicate were not met. I often ended up doing what others wanted not what I wanted or needed in my life. Emotionally, unassertiveness eroded my self-esteem. I have criticized myself for not being able to speak for myself over the decades, but when you were controlled for so much of your life; it takes a long time to get to the stage where your voice is heard. There was so much anger, bitterness, resentment, disappointment bottle up for decades. Such feelings were imploding inside my body causing panic an anxiety that I did not know how to control. I can see now where being unassertive has affected my life. I really do know there is another way of life. The shift inside me is for the better.
Many things inside me have been excited, and there is a lot more to come, as I clear out old feelings. Motoring around my feeling of panic an anxiety is pretty heart and soul wrenching, I do have some good memories of my life. I need to place to memories in a box, and bring them out only when I need. It has also made me think lately about looking after my wellbeing.
I spent a lot of time as the peace maker, sacrificing myself, giving in to mend situations. Placing myself in peril. I am not the only one in life that has had to do that in the world. Deep in my heart, I knew, I finally had to let go and walk away for many reasons. My world was broken. Leading me now to walk with God, there have been a few situations this year where I have huddled in a corner frightened to come out, I knew it was wrong but I couldn’t help it.
We are coming to the last few months of the year, I have wondered where it has all gone, and for the most part it has been a healing year. I am very reflective of my journey; it has been a long road. Soon it will be my 65th year and I reflect on my journey more. There have been so many things that happened in just a few short years. I do not know what is coming up for me down the line. I’ve seen a great deal of the old ways of life disappear and new ways evolve more. My standards of life have grown
My walls were up, hardening myself, building that boundary not letting anyone in for so many years. Slowly it has come down softening my heart. When I was first on my own, I didn’t wish to have anyone have that power over me anymore, I didn’t let anyone in. I lost, but soon realized it is a new life. I admit I made mistakes, I am far from perfect, and my morals are true to God and myself. Life is going to be good. As I heal further.

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2 Corinthians 5:11-21

11 Knowing therefore the terror of the Lord, we persuade men; but we are made manifest unto God; and I trust also are made manifest in your consciences.

12 For we commend not ourselves again unto you, but give you occasion to glory on our behalf, that ye may have somewhat to answer them which glory in appearance, and not in heart.

13 For whether we be beside ourselves, it is to God: or whether we be sober, it is for your cause.

14 For the love of Christ constraineth us; because we thus judge, that if one died for all, then were all dead:

15 And that he died for all, that they which live should not henceforth live unto themselves, but unto him which died for them, and rose again.

16 Wherefore henceforth know we no man after the flesh: yea, though we have known Christ after the flesh, yet now henceforth know we him no more.

17 Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.

18 And all things are of God, who hath reconciled us to himself by Jesus Christ, and hath given to us the ministry of reconciliation;

19 To wit, that God was in Christ, reconciling the world unto himself, not imputing their trespasses unto them; and hath committed unto us the word of reconciliation.

20 Now then we are ambassadors for Christ, as though God did beseech you by us: we pray you in Christ’s stead, be ye reconciled to God.

21 For he hath made him to be sin for us, who knew no sin; that we might be made the righteousness of God in him.

Peace and Hope

Lately I’ve been wondering, “Why?” I’m exhausted in the last 6 years I’ve done a great deal. I’ve done a complete turn around in my life. Resettled built a home, not literally moved into a small home. God replaced all the things I lost tenfold. I did  not realise how exhausting life can be renewing your life. There has been so much I gathered in 6yrs, so much life.

 

A jolt of energy has happened today
Energy to write, I’ve struggled lately
My sleep takes me on a journey
Something inside me shifts into place
The old ways of life and “being” seem to shed off me
The weight is lighter on my shoulders
I’m floating, today
“I’ve changed
All that I know and known to be true”
The path I’m traveling, I’m not to blame

 

The good and the bad, everything and I mean everything
Are all part of my life, I don’t know why things happened
Or what is going to happen, there’s
Just knowing someone is there
Looking after me, no matter what
God is there

Habits and ways well lived for a long time
Have ways of showing up at inopportune times
Holding you from moving forward
There are times when I’m stuck
Struggling to move forward
I’ve been leaping forward then
I crash in exhaustion

Life takes me on a ride
Full of ups and downs
Life keeps moving
Far beyond my reach
I don’t have much option
It’s life

I have a say in the path I take
Carry within my heart what it knows to be true
Honour the whispers that linger
In my soul
They will carry me on my path
to success

I’ve been continually letting go
I’ve struggled, but I had to let go
Parts of me that are well worn
I don’t need them anymore
From time to time they rise
I have the ability to live above them
I know I can do it

There is the journey of life to take now
The piers where my life stood before
Have been wipe clean

There’s a new day rising
There is only forward now

 

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Peace and Hope
Romans
5. 1 Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we[a] have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, 2 through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we[b] boast in the hope of the glory of God. 3 Not only so, but we[c] also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; 4 perseverance, character; and character, hope. 5 And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us..

Praise to God for a Living Hope
1 Peter 3-5
3 Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ! In his great mercy he has given us new birth into a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, 4 and into an inheritance that can never perish, spoil or fade. This inheritance is kept in heaven for you, 5 who through faith are shielded by God’s power until the coming of the salvation that is ready to be revealed in the last time.

God’s deep voice

Lately I have needed to hear God’s voice immensely, suddenly life arrived again. Stress coveted my body again. I needed time to release and hear God’s voice. Maybe during that time I forgot prayer for awhile, sometimes the old ways creep in. Leaving that door open for the devil to creep in. Reminding me to keep in the word of God.

The seas have followed me
by slow shores, through
All the years
Lifting my heart
Beckoning

My heart now in song
My tears heard the song
My tears now quenched
Reasoning in nature
Existing

Hands laid upon my head
Whispers and sorrows led away
Ghastly shadows creep in
And in certain order
Choke my voice
I hear a voice
Perhaps Gods, deep voice is calling
Restored by gentle fingers
Placed upon my head

I cling to his fingers
Large dramatic fingers
But not forever
Through the waves of the seas that followed me
The seas will raise my song again

God’s deep voice calling

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Finding the light

Times of our lives
Take us on a journey
We let the flowers make a journey
We feel like, struggling flowers
Struggling to bloom, we are in a dark place
Those times, where growth
Is like an intricate web of change
Could we ever define the change?

I live in wonder
I feel the change
Yet nobody can see the change
God’s work in your life
I broke through the barrier
The day when I could see
That intricate web of change
When you start to spread your arms

Finding the light

With God in our life
There is a much higher
Feeling in life for us
I know I can make a difference
We all can make a difference
There is a life within God’s world

The day we allow God in our life
Life can change
To know what it means
To be free of worry
To be free of sadness
God can help You live again
Help You feel again
Freedom in God’s world is real

In Jesus name Amen
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40MATTHEW

40-4:16     The people which sat in darkness saw great light; and to them which sat in the region and shadow of death light is sprung up.

612 PETER

61-1:19     We have also a more sure word of prophecy; whereunto ye do well that ye take heed, as unto a light that shineth in a dark place, until the day dawn, and the day star arise in your hearts:

While sunshine, lingers and warms

Flavours come and go
Flavours linger like sweet aromas
As do seasons come and go
Sunshine warms your heart, lingering
Like rain and snow, can warm your soul

Flowers will bloom, and perfume will linger
While sunshine, lingers and warms
Season of my heart, linger in your warmth

Emotions flow, when you leave
The shores last autumn
Sorrows bring tears, that stain your cheeks
But flavours of spring, bring perfume
Happiness could flow in spring

Nature changes the season
As flavours change your life
Yet no season or flavour can get the upper hand

A cold wind blows through winter
Tress, depleted of their leaves
Experience the snow, aroma of a log fire
Bringing spring close, behind the melting snow

Emotions flow, when you leave
The shores last autumn
Sorrows bring tears, that stain your cheeks
But flavours of spring, bring perfume
Happiness could flow in the spring

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But I am the breeze that flows

God carries our thoughts sometimes when I am walking I talk with God. There is a slight breeze in the air when I am talking with God. I capture the breeze and feel God there walking beside me.

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I am the breeze that flows
I journey down the road
The morning’s amber glows
Along the road

I carry the load of your thoughts
Life never changes for me
I am the breeze, I never change
With no change in the weather
You cannot hide from me
I am the breeze
That is my way
Along the road

The morning amber glow
The wind will cease to blow

I keep moving on
I don’t know where
Inhale the breeze, but don’t despair

Life never changes for me
I am the breeze, I never change
I may follow you, wherever you go
I am right at home, with you
As you sit beside the road,
Watching the morning amber glow,
Exhilaration is the breeze

Spirit of Life

Quietly the mighty river runs while my baby sleeps, beside the cool running water
Cool running water, crystal clear, music to my baby’s ears, sunshine and water
Oh! a day beside the running water, watching my baby sleep
While waiting on my love, through kisses and dreams of life
Cool running water running softly while my baby sleeps
I imagine the dreams of a child, my child
I pray for your life to be that of peace
I hear your murmur as you sleep
It soothes as I day dream beside you
Quietly the mighty river runs while my baby sleeps, beside the cool running water
Cool running water, crystal clear, music to my baby’s ears, sunshine and water

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Imagine a cloud

Imagine a cloud
I do when I am walking
I wander here and there
Floating high over valley’s and hills
Once I saw a crowd of imaginary people
A field of golden daisy’s, mixed with daffodils
A river flowing gently, a pepper tree waving in the breeze
Daisy’s and daffodils, dancing like children

A river the flows gently, like stars that shine in the night
Capture the images, floating along the river
A never ending river that floats to the sea
I saw at a glance, images of children dancing
Like fields of fairies, daintily dancing
A never ending musical

A Gently flowing river, creates a tune of life
Gentle ripples besides blooms of gold
Joyful to the day, such good company
I floated beside the river, gazing
Such Joy the sight before my eyes

For often when I gaze upon the valley
In a quiet absent mood, thoughts flash before my eyes
Like stars that shine in the night,
Capture the images, I see
A pepper tree waving in the breeze
Daisy’s mixed with daffodils
A river gently flowing to the sea
Such quietness, of thoughts gives me peace
My heart fills with glee
As I ponder life in the valley
Today.

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Sharing encourages others

A heart of love flows readily
A soul flowing with generosity
An image of quiet simplicity
A heart of love ready to give
Sharing, yet unseen are the prayers
Prayers of faith, trust, time an effort

The care, edifying others
Sharing encourages others
Sharing began with the beginning of time
With our Creator
The Son gave his life for us
Sharing His life with us
The open hands of life

Heaven gathers it’s blessings
From some distant heaven
Showers you with affection

Don’t let pride get in the way
Don’t let greed get in the way
Pride and greed hinders love

Deep in our heart, is the heart of sharing
A heart that remains gentle
Laying open our heart, with means
That we can touch the lives of others
With a gentle heart, we can open our live
To the dedication enabling us to give help
Open our heart, Open our hands
There will be love in the world.

Song of Solomon 5:5 I arose to open for my beloved, and my hands …
… I arose to open for my beloved, and my hands dripped with myrrh, my fingers with …
I jumped up to open the door for my love, and my hands dripped with perfume. …

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