Where do I begin

I’ve search my screen for answers, now the decision, is where do I begin writing my story?
I’ve come to the position where my is closing one door an another is opening, so many things happened in my life. There is a huge gap in my life now as I wonder where I’m going to finish. I try looking around a corner for answers. I cannot let go of my old life altogether as there is two grown up daughters. I know the past is my life that was, but my new life is now created, I can involve my daughters. There will still be hurt, my healing will enable me to deal with the hurt. As time goes on the consequences will become clearer.
There are thoughts of challenges ahead, how do you let go of something that helped you survive? I am now the person I am today because of the life I led. I was able to get through the worst times of my life, because of the person I was. I had strength, even though I was wearing out. I felt there was someone looking out for me but did not know whom till now.
Writing this is going to be a challenge, I’ve struggled to get where I am. There is a desire for the healing of my mind body and spirit. The old story of my life rises from time to time manipulating my request to close the book on my old life over and over. Countless times my past rises and sabotages the path I have been following.
There is an outstretched hand reaching out to me, guiding me toward the light, footsteps invisible to the naked eye. Pulling me through the forest of life, I just have to never let go now, never turning back
I have started this process many times, never being able to complete the process. It has taken time, after all it was a lifetime I left behind. Maybe it is a lesson I have to learn, faith truth, trust, strength, courage. I struggled, a great deal over the past handful of years, it’s still all new. As a young person I lost my faith in God, but I have found my faith in God. When I was going through the thick of my healing, I felt so lost in all forms of life. I could not barely put two words together without stammering.
All of this time has led me up to this point. The next chapter, of my life, starting new pages that need to be written as I move forward. The changes that started a few short years ago, when the attempts at making a new life began. Now the new story begins, I have no idea what is going to happen, I know it’s beginning with an adventure and love of life. When I come home after January I wont stop writing or talking.
I know now, I just have to let go, the lessons of life will continue to flow. By letting go I can become more.
As I now close the old book of my life, It pushed me to live as I do now. It helped me become more than I could have ever thought I could be. I see all the moments that I have lived, I feel all the times I have failed and got back up, dusted myself off and started again. I have been resilient, in moving throughout my new life step by step.
I must use what I have learned, my willingness to heal, my faith is now relentless to believe.
Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.—Philippians4:6-7

January is going to be full, with a trip to the tennis, Australian open championships, for me all my dreams will come true. Turning 65 on centre court. I’ve come from nothing, I’ve grown as a person, full of courage, new found faith, and trust.
The unknowns and challenges leave me feeling anxious. I’ve achieved a great deal over the past few years. A new challenge is facing me as I said going to the Australian Open tennis, flying in a plane. Don’t laugh it is 46 yrs since I was on a plane. Planes now have engines not propellers. Making my way around Melbourne. I’ve been working on a to do list while I am there. I am remembering Paul’s words, “Don’t worry pray”
The word’s of Paul encourage us all. One thing I have come to realise “Life is not without uncertainties” as I read Paul’s words. What I continue to learn is God cares about our lives. All of us face major life transitions, family issues, health scares or most of all financial troubles. God has shown me, I can let go of my fears of the unknown, and stop worrying about what may or may not happen.
As I open the door to my next stage of life, I can rest in God’s promises, that his peace and understanding will guard my life as He does others. Guarding our heart and mind.
It is a blessing not to be anxious about anything, God reminds us we can come to Him about anything and everything. I praise God every morning for what He has done in my life and what He has done in many of my friends lives.
Knowing now God is in my life eases my mind, with prayer, we lift our anxiety
up to God and find comfort and peace in God’s hands. Replacing our anxiety with God’s trust.

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The gentle touch of a hand

There is a sound
The beautiful sound of music
So gentle, the gentle touch of a hand
That saved me
Lost but now I am found
Once blinded by light
Like a child taught to obey
Grace of the Lord, grabbed my heart
And by grace my fears were gone
Like a child, the first hour of life
The first hour I believed
There is a sound
The beautiful sound of music
So gentle, the gentle touch of a hand
That saved me
Lost but now I am found
Once blinded by light
I have already come
Through many dangers
Journey’s by Grace of the Lord
The Lord has led me home
The Lord has shown me the way
His word, is my hope, my security
He will as long as my life endures
He is my armour, my shield
A life of joy and peace, now
Bright and shining as the sun
As the days grow silent
Echoes of God’s praises
Or the sphere of fortune
When time first began
There is a sound
The beautiful sound of music
So gentle, the gentle touch of a hand
That saved me
Lost but now I am found
Once blinded by light
Through the noises of night
The gentle touch of a hand setting me free
The touch of the Lord
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I’m taking a break

I’m taking a break, it’s been a long haul for the last few years. What I’ve done in my life, changing my life. I am taking a few weeks, having a holiday, where I don’t have to thnk for a while.

Thank you everyone that has helped me get where I am in my life.

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Together as one

 

Join together, reach out
Hands across the sea
Joining you and me

Together as one

Build a new horizon together
Joining you and me, across the sea
Changes made slowly, when nations hear
To live in a world together in peace
Not to be afraid

Together as one

Love and sympathy, join together
Like hands across the oceans
Join together, your hands link
Like a chain across the seas

I can share my new tomorrow
Can you share a new tomorrow with me?
Share our troubles together, you and me
Facing the world as one, with our eyes toward the heavens
Open our heart to God and ease our minds

Join together, reach out
Hands across the sea
Joining you and me

Together as one

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Find a sleepy hollow

Find a sleepy hollow
In among the hills
Where the wild flowers roam
I roamed the hills where I was as free
As the wild flowers that grow,
And wither in the sun

I found a sleepy hollow, In among the hills
Where wild flower roam, needing the freedom
Tenderly I now roam, just as the wild flowers
Roam over the mountains and valleys and survive
I found, I am like a wild flower, grown in the valleys, mountains
I found a sleepy hollow, In among the hills
I did not grow up in these hills and valleys
They found me, now I can find the wild flowers
Becoming lost in a valley of flowers
They grew free as I wanted to be free

I left the home land I knew, and roamed
My dreams of life flowed with me
When I left the home land I knew, and roamed
My dreams of life flowed with me
Flowers that grow wild, survive in conditions
Humans can never survive,

In a garden of life. I floated for so many years
I never belonged, one day the garden of flowers set me free

Tracks I left in the land, footsteps, tyre tracks
Breathing the wind, the winds of freedom
As a flower of this land survives in the wild
Not knowing where it lands, I did not know

Life in the wild, is a mystery, yet to be told
I don’t regret the journey, in the wild
I survived
I found a sleepy hollow, In among the hills
I did not grow up in these hills and valleys
They found me, now I can find the wild flowers
Becoming lost in a valley of flowers
They grew free as I wanted to be free

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You led me home

Oh! Dear Lord,
You led me to home
A home of peace
I have found

 

The toils of my life,
Have ended, my life has changed
I’m free now, to roam
As I please
You led me home, Dear Lord

 

No more temptation
No more sin
Yet we are sinners
If I fall, Lord, I come to You
You will Lead me
To my place of peace

 

In my darkest hours
Lord, I came to You
With my prayers
My troubles were dark
I saw no light
Yet Lord, You kept me
From falling away
Now I am free to roam
And You will lead me home

 

If I fall, Lord, I will come to You
You will Lead me
To my place of peace

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1 John 2:1
My little children, I am writing these things to you so that you will not sin. But if anyone does sin, we have an advocate before the Father–Jesus Christ, the Righteous One.

While sunshine, lingers and warms

Flavours come and go
Flavours linger like sweet aromas
As do seasons come and go
Sunshine warms your heart, lingering
Like rain and snow, can warm your soul

Flowers will bloom, and perfume will linger
While sunshine, lingers and warms
Season of my heart, linger in your warmth

Emotions flow, when you leave
The shores last autumn
Sorrows bring tears, that stain your cheeks
But flavours of spring, bring perfume
Happiness could flow in spring

Nature changes the season
As flavours change your life
Yet no season or flavour can get the upper hand

A cold wind blows through winter
Tress, depleted of their leaves
Experience the snow, aroma of a log fire
Bringing spring close, behind the melting snow

Emotions flow, when you leave
The shores last autumn
Sorrows bring tears, that stain your cheeks
But flavours of spring, bring perfume
Happiness could flow in the spring

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All things come to pass, I wondered how?

 

All things come to pass, I wondered how?
At first it was turmoil, the turmoil slowly passed
Heartaches we have all known, today look back at the heartache
I see now I can smile, there are shadows that linger in the dark
I know now our Lord God, is there guiding me

Search out a rose that sleeps, a bloom that is lost
And a tree that is loosing it’s battle in drought ridden country
All thing in life can grow from the ruins
Let your love grow, develop faith, trust,
The stronger you get, you will endure
All things come to pass, I wondered how?
Don’t worry, talk to God, He will help
In the darkest time, we find a light
The light of a new day
We face our troubles, walking tall
We don’t face them alone
God will wipe your worries away
Don’t worry

Search out a rose that sleeps, a bloom that is lost
And a tree that is loosing it’s battle in drought ridden country
All thing in life can grow from the ruins
Let your love grow, develop faith, trust,
The stronger you get, you will endure

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Matthew 6:25
Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes?

Matthew 6:27
Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his lifespan?

Matthew 6:28
And why do you worry about clothes? Consider how the lilies of the field grow: They do not labor or spin.

Matthew 6:31
Therefore do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’

Matthew 6:34
Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Today has enough trouble of its own.

But I am the breeze that flows

God carries our thoughts sometimes when I am walking I talk with God. There is a slight breeze in the air when I am talking with God. I capture the breeze and feel God there walking beside me.

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I am the breeze that flows
I journey down the road
The morning’s amber glows
Along the road

I carry the load of your thoughts
Life never changes for me
I am the breeze, I never change
With no change in the weather
You cannot hide from me
I am the breeze
That is my way
Along the road

The morning amber glow
The wind will cease to blow

I keep moving on
I don’t know where
Inhale the breeze, but don’t despair

Life never changes for me
I am the breeze, I never change
I may follow you, wherever you go
I am right at home, with you
As you sit beside the road,
Watching the morning amber glow,
Exhilaration is the breeze

In your care

You are the hand that guides me
You are the shepherd that guides my heart
My heart is now tender, with You guiding me
It is now a heart that belongs to You
In Your care

You are the hand that guides me
You are the shepherd that guides my heart
For mine I tell You my heart, needs You,
You guide me not into the valley of despair
While keeping guard, Your heart guides me, with Your love
Shelter our heart from danger, following life’s valley
In Your care
You are the hand that guides me
You are the shepherd that guides my heart
My heart was led astray, now You guide my heart
As a shepherd, guides His flock
You must know the journey, my heart took to find You
For mine I tell You my heart, needs You, now and always
I hear You in my prayers, my heart obeys,
In Your care

I ask you Shepherd, guide me, where you may
No-matter where, You lead me, through green pastures
Or a rocky road, I will follow You

You are the hand that guides me
You are the shepherd that guides my heart
In Your care

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