Waves continue their roll
Rolling towards the shore
Each day

Ships glide through ocean waves
With a force only those whom watch
Can imagine

I await the arrival of tomorrow
Tomorrow is irresistible
As waves continue to roll
With a force only those whom watch
Can imagine

Drifting sands roll along the shore
I stand and watch for tomorrow
Envious of those aboard those ships
A voyage of tomorrow
Just commencing

I stand before the ocean
Capturing the peace of the sun
Feel the strength and warmth
Channel through

Lacking sensation
Worries, that catch you
fast approaching
Throwing you of course

Conscious of surroundings
Allowed me to see
How similar we all are
Yet unique in reality

Until tomorrow passes
Like a ship, the ocean closes in behind
Just as before, waves join again
Creating ripples of activity

Drifting sands roll along the shore
I stand and watch for tomorrow
Envious of those aboard those ships
A voyage of tomorrow
We were heading for tomorrow
As each ship weaves through
Just commencing It’s own path,
Seeking, searching, images



Where do I begin

I’ve search my screen for answers, now the decision, is where do I begin writing my story?
I’ve come to the position where my is closing one door an another is opening, so many things happened in my life. There is a huge gap in my life now as I wonder where I’m going to finish. I try looking around a corner for answers. I cannot let go of my old life altogether as there is two grown up daughters. I know the past is my life that was, but my new life is now created, I can involve my daughters. There will still be hurt, my healing will enable me to deal with the hurt. As time goes on the consequences will become clearer.
There are thoughts of challenges ahead, how do you let go of something that helped you survive? I am now the person I am today because of the life I led. I was able to get through the worst times of my life, because of the person I was. I had strength, even though I was wearing out. I felt there was someone looking out for me but did not know whom till now.
Writing this is going to be a challenge, I’ve struggled to get where I am. There is a desire for the healing of my mind body and spirit. The old story of my life rises from time to time manipulating my request to close the book on my old life over and over. Countless times my past rises and sabotages the path I have been following.
There is an outstretched hand reaching out to me, guiding me toward the light, footsteps invisible to the naked eye. Pulling me through the forest of life, I just have to never let go now, never turning back
I have started this process many times, never being able to complete the process. It has taken time, after all it was a lifetime I left behind. Maybe it is a lesson I have to learn, faith truth, trust, strength, courage. I struggled, a great deal over the past handful of years, it’s still all new. As a young person I lost my faith in God, but I have found my faith in God. When I was going through the thick of my healing, I felt so lost in all forms of life. I could not barely put two words together without stammering.
All of this time has led me up to this point. The next chapter, of my life, starting new pages that need to be written as I move forward. The changes that started a few short years ago, when the attempts at making a new life began. Now the new story begins, I have no idea what is going to happen, I know it’s beginning with an adventure and love of life. When I come home after January I wont stop writing or talking.
I know now, I just have to let go, the lessons of life will continue to flow. By letting go I can become more.
As I now close the old book of my life, It pushed me to live as I do now. It helped me become more than I could have ever thought I could be. I see all the moments that I have lived, I feel all the times I have failed and got back up, dusted myself off and started again. I have been resilient, in moving throughout my new life step by step.
I must use what I have learned, my willingness to heal, my faith is now relentless to believe.
Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.—Philippians4:6-7

January is going to be full, with a trip to the tennis, Australian open championships, for me all my dreams will come true. Turning 65 on centre court. I’ve come from nothing, I’ve grown as a person, full of courage, new found faith, and trust.
The unknowns and challenges leave me feeling anxious. I’ve achieved a great deal over the past few years. A new challenge is facing me as I said going to the Australian Open tennis, flying in a plane. Don’t laugh it is 46 yrs since I was on a plane. Planes now have engines not propellers. Making my way around Melbourne. I’ve been working on a to do list while I am there. I am remembering Paul’s words, “Don’t worry pray”
The word’s of Paul encourage us all. One thing I have come to realise “Life is not without uncertainties” as I read Paul’s words. What I continue to learn is God cares about our lives. All of us face major life transitions, family issues, health scares or most of all financial troubles. God has shown me, I can let go of my fears of the unknown, and stop worrying about what may or may not happen.
As I open the door to my next stage of life, I can rest in God’s promises, that his peace and understanding will guard my life as He does others. Guarding our heart and mind.
It is a blessing not to be anxious about anything, God reminds us we can come to Him about anything and everything. I praise God every morning for what He has done in my life and what He has done in many of my friends lives.
Knowing now God is in my life eases my mind, with prayer, we lift our anxiety
up to God and find comfort and peace in God’s hands. Replacing our anxiety with God’s trust.





There are times when I can’t believe

There are times when I can’t believe
I’m sitting where I am
Today with a big smile on my face
I sit with a big heart writing new words
To my life, where the come, I do not know
There’s no doubt God’s been good to me


Oh the sun shinning down on the valley
I’m where I want to be, right now,
I’ve never said right now, before
I’ve never felt so loved, I feel the peace
There’s no doubt God’s been good to me

God placed me here in this valley
On the edge of heaven
In the heart of a city
Where my dreams have come alive
Everything I have, and everything I see
Oh! I know God have been good to me


The road has been long
Sometimes I’ve lost my way
The darkened nights that continue
Into day, I lean then heavily on my new found faith
The devil had my soul chained
Lord your love has set me free
God has been good to me


Ephesians 6-10-18



Don’t be afraid, Don’t be threatened, peace is about
Be strong in faith
With the Helmet of God, there is strength in Salvation
Salvation in the mind protected by God
The mighty power of the hemet of salvation
Against the rulers that once controlled our mind
Binding the powers of the dark world
So that when the day of evil comes, you can stand your ground
Stand firm now with the breast plate of righteousness in God’s sprit, the belt of truth
Tucked around your waist, stand firm in righteousness and truth
Extinguish evil from your mind, free yourself to be alive
Lets mend the broken spirit with the sword of the spirit
There is a mystery of feelings that God can hear
Only he knows, Pray in the spirit, only God can give you salvation
God has heard so many stories, be alert, that when ever God speaks his words
The mystery of God’s world evolves, Your feet are now comfortable in readiness for all that comes in peace.


Ephesians 6:10-18King James Version (KJV)

10 Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord, and in the power of his might.

11 Put on the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil.

12 For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.

13 Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand.

14 Stand therefore, having your loins girt about with truth, and having on the breastplate of righteousness;

15 And your feet shod with the preparation of the gospel of peace;

16 Above all, taking the shield of faith, wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked.

17 And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God:

18 Praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit, and watching thereunto with all perseverance and supplication for all saints;

A journey with God

When God came into my life
I knew there was a higher power
I did not know what I would feel
The feeling that has risen from dust
God knew, I was searching
He knew what he would see when he found me

God created us, he put us here on earth
To lead this life, I begun anew
Learning as I go
Sharing, giving what I can

God knew I would stumble
Oh! how I have fallen at times
He knew I would suffer
He knew I would call out
Sometimes crying out to Jesus

In desperation

So many mistakes, so many difficult choices
He knew that I would falter
Lessons I needed to learn from them
There were times, when it was more that I could take

I cried out

People told me, God had a plan for me
Oh! at times I wish I knew
From the very first day I was born
As you can tell, it’s frustrating at times
But soon I started to see His way

A new journey started

God was teaching me patience
How to grow in patience
If only I knew, slowly
Love, trust, strength, faith and Grace

A new life in God

The love the grew inside me
All the good, that you do
God has be noticing the changes I made
He has seen the work I’ve done

He has carried me
Placed his hands
On my shoulders
Knowing the pain I carried
In my heart, each and every day

Life brought me to my knees
Some gave up on me
God has kept the ones around
That are true

There came a day
When I saw
The hand of God at work
The love He has been sharing
God saved my life
God created my life for me


A journey with God
In Jesus name Amen


Who I am

I’ve been thinking today
How shattered my heart has been
I close my eyes
Thinking about the words
Words, I have written

Thousands of words have flowed

Building a new heart

I’ve explored so many caverns in my heart
Finding a deeper understanding of my life
Who I am
It’s been far from perfect
Some many years of tears
There is a view from a hill nearby
A cross stands on the hill
As I sit on the rail thinking
I am content now, with God in my life

The demons of life scared me for so many years
Crushed my self-esteem, a lifetime of self-esteem
Flushed, till now, scars are fading fast

So many stories of life, so many memories
Memories of times, now past
Yet I’ve stood up and faced life
My defeats speak to me, from time to time
Scars now fading, forgiving, yet do we forget

Confusion ruled my mind
The darkness of life ruled my life
My mind, ruled my world
There was a time, I was ready to quit
God pulled me back out of the darkness

The love of life now, rules the heart
People picked me up, sharing new memories
The person I am now, these people built me up
I am proud of who I have become
I know I am still on a journey
I am far different now
And that’s a miracle
God showed me there is love
Love has won…In Jesus name Amen



Trust in God

I’ve lived in the darkness
My heart was closed
But now I see colours
I see the stars in my eyes
The magic comes alive
Among the kaleidoscope of life

My head was in another world
I’ve fallen in love with life
Dreaming under the stars
I’ll be alright now, I look to the skies

The rainbow of life, came alive
Trust in God, trust in yourself
I know, life is scary, today and tomorrow
Put on the colours of a rainbow

When you forget how to daydream
So consumed, with false witness
In the darkness, life is so short
Deep down, I can’t loose hope
My heart has come alive
With the hope of God

Our scars of life, make us who we are
My head was in another world
I’ve fallen in love with life
Dreaming under the stars
I’ll be alright now, I look to the skies
Now when the winds howl strong
Hold on tight to God, be strong in faith

Find the rainbow of God
The rainbow of life, came alive
Trust in God, trust in yourself
I know, life is scary
Put on the colours of a rainbow
Leaving the past behind

The Covenant of the Rainbow Genesis 9:12-14
…12God said, “This is the sign of the covenant which I am making between Me and you and every living creature that is with you, for all successive generations; 13I set My bow in the cloud, and it shall be for a sign of a covenant between Me and the earth. 14″It shall come about, when I bring a cloud over the earth, that the bow will be seen in the cloud,…

Ezekiel 1:28
As the appearance of the rainbow in the clouds on a rainy day, so was the appearance of the surrounding radiance. Such was the appearance of the likeness of the glory of the LORD. And when I saw it, I fell on my face and heard a voice speaking.


Stay with me Lord, you are my night and day

Be still, by the river
Sit quietly, knowing the river keeps rolling
Be still, your life keeps flowing
My soul, follows, only you know
I call on my dreams, till tomorrow comes
I know my love has known sorrow
My soul, follows, only you know

We’ll find a way, be still and listen
Stay with me Lord, you are my night and day
As the dawn rises beyond the sky
Be still and listen as the birds fly
My soul, follows, only you know

Knowing the river keeps rolling
Your life keeps flowing
Be still, Sit quietly, listening
Stay with me Lord, you are my night and day
My soul, follows, only you know


I feel the wind but the tears

Minutes of uncertainty
The many chilly hours
I desire the warmth
Of your mind
I feel the wind
Your all around me chilly
I take your hand feeling you circle me
And try to catch the wind again
I hide behind your smile at sunset
Day fades into night
Everywhere I look
I try to find you
The sweetest sounds of desire
Would make me sing
I feel the wind but the tears
As the rain comes wiping tears
Behind the walls of the wind
Standing by your heart
Longing to catch the wind
I try to find you

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Passenger of life

When we are searching
Looking for direction
Let your heart guide you
Our dreams fall apart
Broken to dust
Times when we have troubles
Trusting, as long as life endures

Let the signs remind us
We are passengers of life
Let the signs remind us
Let go, surrender
I was once lost

Faith had died
There was no spark
The lights had gone out
Courage can fail you
When all the hope of life runs dry
When the flesh and heart fail

Let the signs remind us
We are passengers of life
Let the signs remind us
Let go, surrender
I was once lost

We’ve been here so long
Following the bright shinning sun
Find comfort in God’s promises
Find inner peace, the hunger doesn’t cease.