We never walk alone

Storm clouds roll through the night
lightening shatters the sky
the loud cry of the wind rips through me
The ocean rises, rolling high
My heart fills with terror
Despair I cannot leave
My thirst for peace gathers
In the quiet of the storm
Prayer fill my heart

When unable to think
My faith sometimes slips
Into the old ways
Friends that leave, betray
My heart longs, for those
Who left
There are times when night rolls through the day
Darkness has been endless
I wonder about the light of day
Longing again to see the light
When I see the light
Prayer has filled my heart

Feel, the gentle winds of the heavens
Sometimes I look to the heavens
Trying to feel the answers
I know God is walking with me
God lives in us all
He holds my hand as I walk
Just to know God is there
Watching over me
Night and day, he listens
When prayer fills my heart
Through all crisis pray
God leaves a puzzled heart
Un puzzled

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There is a stillness in the air.

I found my deep sense of truth when I settled in a sleepy valley; I walked the ridges, hills, which bring a swift chill on a spring morning as you walk. Spending time here on my own, I held onto so many questions, I’ve needed answers for so many years. Interestingly while I know it would be beneficial to have answers, I didn’t know how hard it would be to reflect on the answers.

There is something about wandering, the trails of a sleepy valley, it brings out the joy, the spirit of God flows in my heart when I walk. There is a stillness that makes me delve into a deeper level of conversation with God. There is nothing between me and God to disturb our conversation, no outside influences. Just me, the fresh air how great the feeling.

Life becomes so much clearer as I walk; constant chatter from white noise disappears. It’s just me being me; no mask is needed as I walk. It just you or me walking, it can be challenging. During good and bad days, when I’m down walking is hard.

A liberating as walking is, there is always work to do. I see a path as I walk, I wonder where it will lead or if I was meant to travel this path. So many things I let go of as I walk. Disappointments, achievements, yet I create my life. Sometimes opportunities I see for a quick moment, God’s vision for me.

Now as each day rolls into one sometimes, I realise it’s the way life has always been. There’s no more to add or anything else to take away, or to place in a box closing the lid and forgetting that part of life happened. As hard as it is to let go of annoying habits, that have haunted me for many years. Today there are still possibilities. Now life is revealed, and everything has a clear intention.

Many things will change for me over the next few months and into the New Year. I have discovered a new world with God. I know I’m not done yet, there is so much more life ahead of me, I’ve had a taste of life and new experiences

Many things are going to change over this year. Last year with all of my traveling represented a opportunity for discovering the world. I know I’m not done yet but I’ve had a great taste of what that experience is like. My world has changed.

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Strength and determination

Strength and determination
As uncertain as destiny
Gathers in our mind
Lightening moments, bolt, shock, stimulate
Frivolous in flight, strength and determination
With my head held hight
Determination gives strength
From soul to soul, across my world
As a birds wings flutter
And the thoughts we utter
As forests touch the wind
Wings flutter, across my world

Dreams galore gather
Clouding my vision
At times bitter thoughts have power
To hide gnawing, corroding, my mind
Destroying the brightest light
Think love in determination
There’s hope in strength anew
Dreaded thoughts, give determination
The right to succeed
Renovating a blessed life
With the sword of faith held high

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Being the creator of your life

Living my promises I made to myself, deep within my mind I buried them. Not wanting to go back to my promises. Deep within the forest covered in fog, year after year I desired to complete a simple challenge. So many unexpected challenges of life seemed to get in the way.

The storms of life came all so often, in those days my roots were not strong enough to hold on. As the storm brewed, a wind blew; I was pulled in so many directions, confusing my mind. My grounding, my morals, I was taught to be where I was no matter what happened. When the winds, thunder storms of life, blew, the storms of life refused to move.

Someone said, “Why not go over the writing you have done?” I have been thinking lately about the words, which have been written. Many words helping sort out my mind, those words are still there but are not appropriate anymore as I have moved forward. I realise how much, I have moved on and keeping the strength to keep doing so. Sometimes everyone needs to do so and I’ve done so lately. I am now the creator of my life and what it becomes.

Becoming the creator of the days of one’s life is something special. I do what I want now, when I want; I can just sit and dream if I wish. Oh! It is a pleasure. I am proud of my choices, the sense of freedom in life.

I’ve been seeking many answers to life, wondering which way to turn at times, these have been some of the greatest experiences. I’ve asked so many questions, as I walk the hills of the Barossa. The questions of life that come from the heart of my soul with God walking beside me..

I know I am home now; I am at peace with my destiny

Over the past few years I’ve been cleaning, casting out, the mess created in the past. The protective coating we hang onto unnecessarily.  A life times of stories being told, how to act, and all the words that were forced down my throat. Getting me to conform to ways of old, cover ups of life. It has taken me most of my life to have my eyes opened and to shed these parts of my life. I can now spend the last part of my life being me and walking the path that God has set out for me. Day by day I discover new feelings deep within my heart.

At times, I’ve had to rehash parts of my life seeking to get through to the other side of healing. I have achieved healing, but with sheer determination to get through to the other side. Without the healing of God and those that care I would not be where I am today. I would still be the person I was 6yrs ago.

 

My writing has been my therapy and those words, sharing has saved my life along with Salvation from God.

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The path to peace, can be simple

So many questions
Questions rattled my mind
Largely remained unanswered
I’ve been holding onto life
Till I realised it’s time to change

I’ve had glimpses of life
Leading to the way ahead
God has shown me small steps
Stepping stones to a world
Illuminated right in front of me
A sense of life in the big picture
Pieces still yet to be filled in
Yet leading me to what I needed to do and needed to let go of
I prayed and prayed earnestly, God showed me
How! the brain fog was lifted
It was so easy, to gain peace

The path to peace,
Can be simple if we let it
I felt as though
I was traveling along the path
But didn’t really know it
I just really needed to
Believe in myself
God was showing me a lesson in life

I wandered in a blur
For so many years, then,
There had been a silence that had fallen
Leaving enough space, to show me
Letting go, learn to let go, echoed
Where do I go next?
There are still parts of my life
I need to step back from

 

And so I am
I wont say it is easy
There are moments
When I fall into the old
Then turn commit to right choice
Again and again
Not looking back

 

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Ephesians 6-10-18

 

 

Don’t be afraid, Don’t be threatened, peace is about
Be strong in faith
With the Helmet of God, there is strength in Salvation
Salvation in the mind protected by God
The mighty power of the hemet of salvation
Against the rulers that once controlled our mind
Binding the powers of the dark world
So that when the day of evil comes, you can stand your ground
Stand firm now with the breast plate of righteousness in God’s sprit, the belt of truth
Tucked around your waist, stand firm in righteousness and truth
Extinguish evil from your mind, free yourself to be alive
Lets mend the broken spirit with the sword of the spirit
There is a mystery of feelings that God can hear
Only he knows, Pray in the spirit, only God can give you salvation
God has heard so many stories, be alert, that when ever God speaks his words
The mystery of God’s world evolves, Your feet are now comfortable in readiness for all that comes in peace.

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Ephesians 6:10-18King James Version (KJV)

10 Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord, and in the power of his might.

11 Put on the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil.

12 For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.

13 Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand.

14 Stand therefore, having your loins girt about with truth, and having on the breastplate of righteousness;

15 And your feet shod with the preparation of the gospel of peace;

16 Above all, taking the shield of faith, wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked.

17 And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God:

18 Praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit, and watching thereunto with all perseverance and supplication for all saints;

Today

Today I found the Kidman trail, driving on the back roads of the Barossa, I had to share this delightful old building I found. Even though it is falling apart I wondered if Sir Sidney Kidman may have stopped there.  https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sidney_Kidman.

Australians who know the history, know Sidney Kidman was one of the largest pastrol land lease across our great country.

The wall, the roof
Stood the test of time
I was always very high
Chipping away at the test of time
Stone by stone
Today it’s rough around the edges
Bricks falling by the way
Quite shabby, it was a home once
It’s falling bit by bit
Clouds pass by, roof leaks
Walls could tell stories
People, working, walking,
It all tells a story,
Some even argued
Bricks made of mud
More than you will ever know
More

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A journey with God

When God came into my life
I knew there was a higher power
I did not know what I would feel
The feeling that has risen from dust
God knew, I was searching
He knew what he would see when he found me

God created us, he put us here on earth
To lead this life, I begun anew
Learning as I go
Sharing, giving what I can

God knew I would stumble
Oh! how I have fallen at times
He knew I would suffer
He knew I would call out
Sometimes crying out to Jesus

In desperation

So many mistakes, so many difficult choices
He knew that I would falter
Lessons I needed to learn from them
There were times, when it was more that I could take

I cried out

People told me, God had a plan for me
Oh! at times I wish I knew
From the very first day I was born
As you can tell, it’s frustrating at times
But soon I started to see His way

A new journey started

God was teaching me patience
How to grow in patience
If only I knew, slowly
Love, trust, strength, faith and Grace

A new life in God

The love the grew inside me
All the good, that you do
God has be noticing the changes I made
He has seen the work I’ve done

He has carried me
Placed his hands
On my shoulders
Knowing the pain I carried
In my heart, each and every day

Life brought me to my knees
Some gave up on me
God has kept the ones around
That are true

There came a day
When I saw
The hand of God at work
The love He has been sharing
God saved my life
God created my life for me

 

A journey with God
In Jesus name Amen

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Trust in God

I’ve lived in the darkness
My heart was closed
But now I see colours
I see the stars in my eyes
The magic comes alive
Among the kaleidoscope of life

My head was in another world
I’ve fallen in love with life
Dreaming under the stars
I’ll be alright now, I look to the skies

The rainbow of life, came alive
Trust in God, trust in yourself
I know, life is scary, today and tomorrow
Put on the colours of a rainbow

When you forget how to daydream
So consumed, with false witness
In the darkness, life is so short
Deep down, I can’t loose hope
My heart has come alive
With the hope of God

Our scars of life, make us who we are
My head was in another world
I’ve fallen in love with life
Dreaming under the stars
I’ll be alright now, I look to the skies
Now when the winds howl strong
Hold on tight to God, be strong in faith

Find the rainbow of God
The rainbow of life, came alive
Trust in God, trust in yourself
I know, life is scary
Put on the colours of a rainbow
Leaving the past behind
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The Covenant of the Rainbow Genesis 9:12-14
…12God said, “This is the sign of the covenant which I am making between Me and you and every living creature that is with you, for all successive generations; 13I set My bow in the cloud, and it shall be for a sign of a covenant between Me and the earth. 14″It shall come about, when I bring a cloud over the earth, that the bow will be seen in the cloud,…

Ezekiel 1:28
As the appearance of the rainbow in the clouds on a rainy day, so was the appearance of the surrounding radiance. Such was the appearance of the likeness of the glory of the LORD. And when I saw it, I fell on my face and heard a voice speaking.

 

In pursuit of life

When nothing goes to plan along the pathway to peace
When we think of the pathway to success
life  never comes in a straight path
It arrives, but it’s all over the place
Advance and retreat, Advance and retreat
So many times
That’s how it is for everyone
Two steps forward, two steps backward
I’ve talked about mistakes
Learning from mistakes
When life goes array
Time and time again
Trying, keep moving forward
In pursuit of goals

There was a time
When I sat still
Huddled in a corner
I thought about success
Going about life, in a blurr

Now pursuing life
Your part of life
I feel life each day

When we know where we are going
We will get there, I know I will
I know I’ve paid a price
Nothing has come easy
And it still doesn’t

Pursuing life
Paying the price
Rewards are coming my way
Dreams are being fulfilled
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