Life within PTSD
There have been many causes of PTSD within my life; I do not wish to go into them at the moment sometimes PTSD rares it’s ugly head from time to time. For the moment it has.
I sit and look at my writing delete, sometimes when I write at the moment, I look at it and it is not me
This last week life hit me like a wallop, everything was racing, and my stomach was churning. Sleep evaded me.
So many life changing moments have been replaying in my mind lately; you wish it all to go away especially at night. Loud noises are not my best fortay, my nerves struggle and I have to walk away. I think everything I did last year to get my life up and running again caught up with me big time.
My confidence increased last year, I was able to do many things with God’s help. I thought it’s time to close the book on my life. It did happen. The worst thing was when Tibby passed away, that shocked a great deal of people in my life, she was loved by many. Unfortunately the book of my life will be open again for a little while.
I went to the Doctors last night, we spoke of many things. The only thing I can do at the moment is rest. To bring my body back into relax mode. Stressful situations don’t help me. I do my best to keep out of those situations.
For the moment all I need is rest and quiet, to gather my bearings again. In 2013 I was hospitalised because of PTSD and I don’t wish to go there again. So please bear with me for a little while. Till I return, please pray for me to find peace again.
1 Thessalonians 5:16-18English Standard Version (ESV)
16 Rejoice always, 17 pray without ceasing, 18 give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you.