As change was about to come in my life, I despaired about the uttermost effort. Not knowing where to turn, the new birth of my life came from above, not from anything surrounding me, I cannot deny or conceal the truth because it would be false comfort, I am admitting to the world now that my new life has come from God.
As I went about my life for the first twelve months before my divorce, you have no idea how lost I was, I had no sense of direction. We have all heard the saying, “Automatic pilot,” well that was me.
It took me at least two years to realise, I could change, that was about the time I decided to get fully immersed and baptised as an adult. There was no difficulty about the decision, it was necessary so I could implement change in my life. Salvation a life changing experience was something only God could give me my belief in Jesus started growing stronger. It is sometimes hard to understand the new feeling I have since my baptism and a period of time as my faith has grown.
My trust in Jesus has lifted me with answered prayer, there have been times when I have got down on my knees and prayed. Life changing experiences that I did not know I could manage on my own. Those experiences I have dealt with the Lords help and regenerating my life. Creating my life anew in a new world.. People have not done the believing for me, I have done the believing. Jesus died on the cross for us, so we can believe for eternal.
With a changing heart, now the Holy Spirit works in my life, in mysterious ways the Holy Spirit is helping me, I have seen an experienced the results. Relief in tension, I’ve stopped running from my life, I feel peace, I am able for the first time to face fears. To me it is mysterious to me to experience feelings that I do now. It is the Holy Spirit working in my life.
I am learning that God works in his own way, I have not sat still letting God do all the work, I have done my share of the work learning and reading the Bible attending studies research God’s word.
With grace, repentance and belief, without the Lord in my life I would not have been able to do any of the changes in my life. Throwing my trust in Jesus and waiting on Him I am able now to accept and willingly walk with God. I still find it hard to explain changes, for those that have known me personally can see the changes in my life and me, I know I was in danger of going down when I first settled back in South Australia. I was so far down in depression, I could not raise my head to see in front of me. All the phycologists could not help till a Christian counsellor lifted me out of darkness but I still was not there, I was still running from my past.
The mystery of life has worked in my life. The mystery of the Holy Spirit, healing me, I have accepted the mystery. Difficulties that kept me from living now saved by the Lord our Saviour God, has given me a second chance at life by growing in faith, grace, belief.
Matthew 3:8 Therefore let your lives prove your change of heart;
Matthew 10:10 no bag for your journey, nor change of linen, nor shoes, nor stick; for the labourer deserves his food.
Matthew 17:2 There in their presence His form underwent a change; His face shone like the sun, and His raiment became as white as the light.
Matthew 18:3 And said, Truly, I say to you, If you do not have a change of heart and become like little children, you will not go into the kingdom of heaven.
Mark 6:12 And they went out, preaching the need for a change of heart in men.
You observe days, and months, and times, and years.
And he changes the times and the seasons: he removes kings, and sets up kings: he gives wisdom to the wise, and knowledge to them that know understanding: