I wrote this because It is something I have to remind myself, continually now, as I experience, new emotions. Some things I have never experienced before in my life.
As I walk closer with God now and realise where my life is at, I know there is going to be disappointments, discouragement, which are all normal emotions. We all will experience these emotions whether we are Christians or not. By pressing closer to God as I have found I can make sure I don’t let these emotions get the better of me again.
A long time ago now I was discouraged by life not knowing where to turn, my family just didn’t get what was going on in my life. In the midst of my suffering and questioning whether there was God or someone out there that could help me. Family heaped so much more on me, I was blamed for the afflictions of alcohol by my partner arguments and abuse. In the Bible a noted character Job was depressed, disillusioned by life and family. Others don’t understand what we are going through, or don’t wish to get involved as we wished they would. Our disappointment can turn to discouragement. Believe me turning to God, searching for answers in a battlefield of the mind can lead to finding peace.
Despite our prayers, sometimes things don’t turn out the way we want them to, you as I did can become discouraged with life. When I repented and came to God first asking for forgiveness, forgiving myself, then my heart softened slowly. I was so angry the way my life had fallen, discouraged with those around me, with no perspective in life. I wondered if there was hope in God. I couldn’t see the bigger picture of a life the God was placing before me.
In the beginning I felt so discouraged with myself, my pride kept me from seeing myself clearly. While my pride kept my doors closed to the outside world, God denied me the world. We can feel discouraged, depressed, when we fail to live up to someone else expectations. Till I worked out it was my own expectations I had to live up to. Discouragement happens to us all, don’t let it swallow your life it almost did mine.
I found myself over the holidays, working with God has given me strength. Before I was not honest with myself, so many feelings were going through my body, I did not know how to handle them. I sought God further. The biggest thing I learned was not to pretend, I was alright. The first thing in coming to God is admit you need God or someone to help you. Learning how to process your negative feelings through God has helped me get where I am today.
I am more conscious of what I put through my body today, my body just was not working a couple of years ago, today with my body on the right track, my mind, emotions are strong. God tended to my body first, before addressing all of my other problems. Oh! There was many mental problems God had to deal with for me. Circumstances of life had drained me dry, God wanted me to press the pause button, on my life and take time to be me and reconnect as I did, simply rest and refresh.
By paying attention to my thoughts last year led to where I am today, maturing as a believer, maturing as Barbara, I thought truthfully about where I am at in my life and my relationship with God. We attempt to make sense of what happens in our lives, we try to figure out, why this, or that happens and what it all means. Today I found it crucial that I pay attention to my thoughts, with everything that goes through my mind, or what particular situation. Sometimes our thoughts can lead to discouragement. When thoughts change in your mind and heart, negative emotions can creep in. Even though life stays the same.
The pain across your brow, pressing on every side of your body can strike you down, I know it did me more than once. It can leave you almost destroyed. Today I have learned firmly to fix my eyes upon God. Searching God for His spiritual help, therefore we do not loose heart or sight of God. I know it is hard, life is hard. Fix our eyes not on what is seen, but what is, unseen is, eternal. There is pain in life, don’t let discouragement win.
We all know the truth, life is hard, people do disappoint and hurt us. We don’t always understand what is going on. Since coming to know the Lord, I have found Him to be a stronghold in my life. In times of trouble, God’s faith, trust, always gets me through. I found during the years of turmoil in my life, troubles became unbearable. Since building a relationship with God, handing my troubles to God at the foot of the cross, life became easier.
I know myself, I give thanks to God for the life He has given me with much Gratitude. It helps so much and is so powerful in dispersing discouragement. I now look for things that I can be grateful for each day keeping my life on track, I know I can do it now with God walking beside me.
The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.”
Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lordyour God will be with you wherever you go.”
They are distressed, because they had been confident; they arrive there, only to be disappointed.
Kings will be your foster fathers, and their queens your nursing mothers. They will bow down before you with their faces to the ground; they will lick the dust at your feet. Then you will know that I am the Lord; those who hope in me will not be disappointed.”
Let the message of Christ dwell among you richly as you teach and admonish one another with all wisdom through psalms, hymns, and songs from the Spirit, singing to God with gratitude in your hearts.